a tighter focus
in keeping with the general theme of change as of late, and how everyone else/ yourself, changes/doesn't change, and for the good/bad; i'm going to go in on a little tighter focus by using this logic on myself. if i am completely honest with myself, i have changed minimally in some respects in the last five years, and a lot of it not for the good. i have grown up a lot in the last five years, but in that have lost a lot of sweet innocence i had. recognizing that perhaps it is you that has changed for the worst is a difficult thing to do. looking at someone you knew in middle school and seeing the look in their eyes that asks what happened to her is not fun. not at all. at the same time you see that question, you want to just scream "a hell of a lot" i sometimes think that seeing someone who is basically the same person you knew, while you look at each other with new eyes is a harrowing experience and you ask yourself if your cynicism is showing. all the naivete on your part is gone, too much as happened to have rose glasses, yet it is still obvious that for them everything still has a pink tint. i accept that in the last five years i have alternated between an arrogant, self righteous bitch and a effacious, facetious, bitch, but the fact that i accept it is the difference.
posted by karmicbacklash @ 11:00 AM
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